multi-masking

… I look at this…

… and I say to my self, “Sure, I’m broke, but it’s definitely worth it.”

~<3333

a. List out 8 male idols you can think of and label them from M1 to M8.

M1. Lee Jungshin
M2. Lee Jonghyun
M3. Jung Yonghwa
M4. Kang Minhyuk
M5. Lee Hongki
M6. Lee Minho
M7. Lee Seungki
M8. Peter Hyun

b. List out 8 female friends you can think of and label them from F1 to F8.

F1. Shee
F2. Mariel
F3. Rej
F4. Ating
F5. Ming
F6. Chelle
F7. Micky
F8. Honey

c. Get ready and answer all questions below. Be honest~

1. If you are about to do a parody for any k-drama with M2, what drama should it be?

Shee! I’m sorry. If I’d known it was going to be this way, I would’ve listed Jungshin as M2 instead. Hmmm… Jonghyun. It has to be a Noona k-drama… hmmm… *thinking* I can’t think of anything. So maybe I’ll just answer “Boys Over Flowers” – Jonghyun will be Junpyo, and I’ll be Gaeul. Hohoho. Phew!

2. Imagine if F8 & M5 are husband and wife, what name should they give for their child?

Mareng Honey and Hongki? I knew it, she should’ve watched the FT Island showcase with us. Too bad she isn’t much of a Kpop fan. But to answer the question, something that starts with H, be it a Western or a Korean name.

3. Between M6 & M7, who do you prefer to be your brother and special one? Why?

Who do I prefer to be my brother, Lee Minho or Lee Seungki? Gosh, this is a toughie. I guess I have to go for the taller one. I think Lee Minho? And he put on some of weight recently, so I think it’s going to be fun to be his sister and pig-out buddy. Plus, I think the best perk of being his sister~ I can bully him to make those magnificent egg rolls he boasts he can make. ^^

4. If rumors spread that M3 is in relationship with F1, your reaction is…

Shee and Yonghwa? I’d giggle, wondering why it’s not Jonghyun. And be relieved it’s not Jungshin. Kekekeke~

5. Choose a song to be an OST for a drama casting you & M7

“Because You’re My Woman” by Lee Seungki. The classic love song for a noona.

6. Between F6 & F2, who do you prefer to be your unnie? Why?

Maybe Mariel, because she’s older than Chelle. But I’m older than them both, btw~

7. M8 has to choose between F5 & F4, which one do you prefer for him?

None! I want Peter for myself!!!

Yes, I’m serious about this~<3

8.What do you like about M4 & F3?

Minhyuk and Rej ~ they both exude positivity. And I admire Minhyuk’s ability with the drums. And they’re both tall. Hahaha.

9.Let say today is M2 and F7 wedding day, could you name character below to make their family complete? Bride, groom, bride parent, groom parent, bride & groom friends.

Jonghyun and Micky? I was thinking Micky would marry someone from DBSK. So I don’t think I’m in the position to answer this.

10.M1 is asking you out for dinner tonight. You are so excited. You want to give him a present. What would it be and why?

Jungshinnie… Aigoo~ I knew M1 was the most important of all. *blush* First of all, I’d say yes to the dinner invite. And then I’m getting dolled up, even if I really don’t fix myself up that much lately, just so he knows I’m not going out with him halfheartedly (as if that’s even possible). And because I’m really short, I’m going to wear heels to meet him halfway~<3

I think that’s the most I can give him… I don’t think a material gift’s appropriate because he’s the one who asked me out that night. Maybe next time, when I’m the one who gives the invite, I’m sure I’ll think of something.

But if he asks for a hug or a kiss or both, who am I to say no?

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Shee, thanks for tagging me, and thanks for giving this test a little twist. I don’t think I could’ve continued if we used female idols for F1-F8. I had a blast answering this~<3 *hugs*

Sorry. I don’t know how to explain the title, aside from repeating it. Baby steps. Tee hee.

I’m glad today, Yonghwa took a quickie break from MC-ing at SBS Inkigayo to rap for G.na. I never really paid attention to her, and to her album too. It wasn’t until today when I really took a good look at the song title. Upon researching the English translation, I realize some parts are not really applicable to me. But a lot of parts struck too.

Baby steps, self. Baby steps.

I’ll Back Off So You Can Live Better > G.na feat BEAST Junhyung

I’ll back off so you can live
Say it directly
Looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?
(I know) You probably got a lady
(I know) You probably got sick of me
even though the tears are rushing to me

I’ll back off so you can live
That is all I can say
I’ll forget you so you can live better
I’ll back off so you can live
So that you will be happy without me
The love you tossed away
You can take it
Don’t leave even a trace behind and take it all
Don’t even say you are sorry
Don’t worry about me

Sorry my sweety
Your lips that told me that you were going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you
The words don’t go out
And you are already moving far apart

(I know) You will forget me
(I know) I will really hate you
Even though you know everything

I’ll back off so you can live
That is all I can say
I’ll forget you so you can live better
I’ll back off so you can live
So that you will be happy without me
The love you tossed away
You can take it
Don’t leave even a trace behind and take it all
Don’t even say you are sorry
Don’t worry about me

(You) The reason i lived
(You) You were all i wanted
You~
It was me who only looked at you
(Why) Why are you leaving?
(Why) Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first
place?

Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies
I believed it

(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
Did you really love me?
(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
No No No No
(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
I’ll forget so you can live better

lyrics courtesy of jessycloe @ jpopasia

A little late in posting since this happened yesterday… I’m still keeping mum about things, but it doesn’t mean I’m not thankful, ‘cuz really, I am. So thank You, dearest Lord.

1 in reply to this:

2 in reply to my letter

It still feels like a dream, but I don’t want to dwell on it… But again, thank You, Lord. I know You know how much I’m really grateful for this.

… as long as I don’t check his Twitter timeline.

We get to taste a little piece of heaven, and instead of feeling contented, we get greedy and start craving for more.

And I am so guilty of this.

I woke up today squinting at the sunlight. First thought: I want to go back to sleep. Second thought: What time is it? And as soon as my eyes focused on the alarm clock, I knew I was screwed. 8:45 AM. I was supposed to wake up at 6AM.

I bolted upright and went online, googling the exact location of SM MOA’s Activity Center. I’ve been told there were two, and it wasn’t clear to me which of those two, and more importantly, where those were situated. Luckily, a friend had replied to my text and given me some helpful landmarks.

I was ready in less than an hour. But I was crushed as soon as I hit the road. Heavy road traffic on a Sunday? WTF?!? It didn’t last long though, so I was able to breath smoothly again.

Finally, I reached SM Mall of Asia. With the help of a kind-hearted security guard, I found the venue for One Way’s last showcase here in Manila. I got control numbers 52 and 53 (I bought a CD for Micky because she couldn’t come early) and a cheerful bunch of new friends.

It was every bit worth the long wait. The show started an hour later than scheduled. But damn. New numbers (that they didn’t perform during their Friday showcase) were added to the setlist ~ Peter tap dancing to Young Sky’s rapping and Chance singing “Forever”, among others. Okay, so I won’t deny that I wasn’t too happy with the three girls onstage while the boys serenaded them with their cover of Neyo’s “Sexy Love”, but they still rocked. Really really really rocked. Even their collaboration with local singer Christian Bautista for the English version of “Wrong Number” was awesome, with the choreography and rapport and all. And just like last Friday, friggin’ wonderful cover of “Geek In The Pink”.

And then came the most-awaited part, the autograph session. I had a million things I wanted to do but I was frozen scared, dreading rejection of some sort from them. But when I approached Peter for his signature, I was like, “What the heck, if I don’t do this now, I might never get the chance to again…”

Peter.
His eyes actually lit up when he saw me. “Hey!” he said with a big smile on his face. Whether he remembered me from Friday’s showcase, or he remembered I gave him the mango shake banner, or both, I guess I’ll never know. It could’ve been my imagination too. But I prefer to bask in what I saw and felt at that moment.

“Did you enjoy the show?”

I couldn’t stop myself from blabbing feverishly. “I loved your tap dancing.” This got me another blinding smile from him right before he said thank you.

“I love you!” I blurted out. He smiled again at this. For the life of me, I couldn’t remember if he said “Thank you” or “I love you too”, but I don’t care. I got it off my chest. I told him those three words. I got to tell him what was in my heart.

I realize he was finished signing my CD for quite sometime. Luckily the person making sure that we don’t stick around each member for too long was busy with a phone call, so I seized the opportunity.

“Can we shake hands?” I asked him. Without waiting for his reply, I stuck out my hand, and he took it. Taking that as a good sign, I got bolder with my next move.

“Can I get a hug?”

To which he replied without batting an eyelash. “Sure.”

So he stood up from his seat and we hugged.

Our cheeks touched.

He smelled so good.

I bowed slightly and thanked him before moving to Young Sky.

Young Sky.
I think we said hello to each other. I’m not so sure. But this one, I’m betting my life that this really happened.

“Pam goes One Way,” he said, reading off the words on the One Way sign printout that Micky and I both wore as a necklace.

This got me smiling ear-to-ear.

“Pam goes…” he trailed off, grinning.

“One Way?” I weakly guessed. He chuckled softly and started to sign my CD. When he was finished, I put out my hand, he took and shook it.

“Can we hug?” I asked him.

“Sure,” he replied immediately, standing up from his seat to embrace me. I thanked him afterwards and moved on to Chance.

Chance.
“Hello, did you enjoy the show?” he asked as he signed my CD

I nodded. “Yes! Thank you for singing Forever,” I said gratefully.

He looked a little surprised at first, but in a pleasant way, I think. Maybe he was touched at that? We shook hands, and as with the other two, I asked him if I could get a hug. He said yes, and we hugged. I said my thanks and even if my feet wanted to stay rooted to the ground, I followed the aforementioned rules and made my exit.

As soon as Micky caught up with me after our turn at the autograph session, we both shrieked with glee. We chatted a bit before saying our goodbyes to our new friends and stayed behind for a quick dinner before going home.

Still reeling from sheer delight, I dropped by the adoration chapel to say my thanks to the Lord on my way home. This was something new to me. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so happy, it felt like I was going to burst with so much emotion. My breathing was so irregular then (up to now, it’s still somewhat erratic). And as soon as I closed my eyes to say my thank-you prayer, tears actually rolled.

It’s scary, how this crazy whirlwind experience can feel so good. From Friday’s showcase at SM North Edsa Sky Garden to E-Live at ABS-CBN to their final mall show today. To think that it’s just one of those mere fan-idol things. But earlier tonight, while walking away from the adoration chapel, it felt as if there’s been this hole in my soul all this time, and this weekend, it seems like One Way kinda filled it up.

I kinda regret not having personally introduced myself to Peter as Mango Shake Banner girl tonight. But maybe that’s not so important now. What matters is that he did appreciate the gesture. Then again, maybe another place, another time, I just might have the chance to do it. ^^

It’s 2:04 in the morning, and my heart is still singing, soaring sky high.

Mango shake.
Tap dancing shoes.

Stuck in this one-way street.
I’m not complaining.

But what to do? It feels so good… But I feel like I’m getting greedier by the minute.

I think I can truly consider today my first day of being a true-blue One Love. I mean, I enjoy their music immensely (as much as I love CNBLUE’s music, that’s how good they are), and I go crazy when Peter Hyun gets all sweet and flirty with his tweets, but I think today, at their first of three showcases here in Manila, I’ve moved to the next level.

Last Saturday, Peter replied to my tweet on what song he wanted as a lullaby (BeeGees, “How Deep Is Your Love”), so right after I made a banner with my Twitter ID, I was thinking of making another one with the lyrics to the song. I had tweeted him the first four lines, but if I did that, it would sound kind of delusional, so I ended up deciding against it.

And then a friend, Chelle, texts me that Peter’s been reporting on Twitter that he’s tried mango juice today for the first time, and that he would love to get the recipe for mango shake. Chelle ends her SMS report with a note that it’s up to me to use that tidbit to catch his attention. Just so happened that we got these freebie folders from the mall. I can’t remember who came with the idea first, if it was me, Micky, or new friends Claudette and Rianna, but we all decided to make a banner with a recipe for mango shake for Peter. I gave that banner to him when it was his turn to sign my copy of their album.

So the autograph session ends, Micky and I fight our way through the pouring rain, and after several hours of travel, I arrive home and receive a text message from Chelle asking me what my mango shake recipe banner looked like. Too tired to describe it, I just told her I’d tweet it. And then she tells me that Universal Records has just tweeted something she believed to be mine.

To my utter delight, I saw this picture on UR’s Twitpic:

Wieeeeeeee this totally made my night. ^^