It may be too bubblegum-pop for my age but I really fell in love at first listen. <3
Dear boy, you’re my angel
Let me show you a better day
How do I look today?
They say that I look prettier these days
I keep looking at the mirror
Today, I’m a pretty good-looking girl
Rub dub rub dub, I tremble
Whenever I think of you, I tremble
What to do with myself, oh oh
I seem like a fool
I’m embarassed for myself
But I want to have courage and tell you
Slowly, on your two cheeks, BuBiBu
I want to hold your hand tightly and BuBiBu
Just by hearing your name, just by hearing your voice makes me feel good
I like you so much, I like you so much, what do I do?
Little by little, on your lips, BuBiBu
You are my everything BuBiBu
Just by looking at you, I feel good
Just by hearing your name, just by hearing your voice makes me feel good
I like you so much, I like you so much, what do I do?
Even if you seem a bit cold and stony
You are a warm guy to me
I keep looking at your face
You’re my one and only boyfriend
I keep, keep, keep
I keep thinking of you
What to do with myself, oh oh
I want to take a walk with you
I want to go on a picnic with you
There are so many things to do
Slowly, on your two cheeks, BuBiBu
I want to hold your hand tightly and BuBiBu
Just by hearing your name, just by hearing your voice makes me feel good
I like you so much, I like you so much, what do I do?
Little by little, on your lips, BuBiBu
You are my everything BuBiBu
Just by looking at you, I feel good
Just by hearing your name, just by hearing your voice makes me feel good
I like you so much, I like you so much, what do I do?
Slowly, on your two cheeks, BuBiBu
I want to hold your hand tightly and BuBiBu
Just by hearing your name, just by hearing your voice makes me feel good
I like you so much, I like you so much, what do I do?
Little by little, on your lips, BuBiBu
You are my everything BuBiBu
Just by looking at you, I feel good
Just by hearing your name, just by hearing your voice makes me feel good
I like you so much, I like you so much, what do I do?
It took me a long time to get here, whatever this state I’m in is. I’ve gone through a lot — laughter, tears, pain, self-pity, hatred, acceptance, and finally, motivation. I can’t really say I’m perfect, but at least I like this version of me better. In spite of stuff I had to give up against my will, in the process, I was able to rearrange my priorities. It wasn’t easy, but I’m happy just knowing I was able to adapt.
To the people who are in constant search of who they really are, this post is for you. Believe in yourself and take a look at the people who genuinely love you. You are definitely not alone. Sometimes, there are stuff and even people you have overlooked all your life which/who will later on help you establish your rock-solid identity. I sincerely wish that one May 1st, or whenever your country celebrates Labor Day, you’ll get to realize that finally, your efforts at self-discovery have been greatly rewarded. What’s cool is that it doesn’t have to be money all the time.
Last night, my friend Joana flew to San Francisco, where she’ll be staying for about 2-3 years until she gets her permanent residence status. It’s still unclear if she’ll be able return to the Philippines around that time.
I had the chance to spend time with her during the music video shoot for 1:43′s “PiNK.” I remember how apprehensive I was to approach her because up until that day, I really had no idea about what she really was like. Hmm, on second thought, I heard a bit of negative feedback about her — I’m pretty sure she knows this.
We ended up hitting it off, the two of us, and became fast friends shortly after that. Together with Elen and Mina, it felt like we were invincible. Now that I think about it, we were like the Fantastic Four or something. Hahahaha. But no, we lovingly call ourselves Katas. And don’t even ask why.
After a few months of being close with each other, she told us that she was leaving soon for the States. If I remember correctly, that was around October or November last year. And then later, she shared that her Dad gave her more time to prepare. She was still able to expand her resume with volunteer work at a handful of hospitals and spend a little more time with her Mom, relatives, and friends. Us included.
I think it was around last month when she dropped the bomb on us that she was scheduled to leave towards the end of April. I was happy for her, since this was going to be a challenge that I know she would be able to embrace and overcome. It was a little saddening though, that from the latter half of last year onwards the four of us became busy with our individual lives — Elen with school, Joana and Mina with hospital duties, me with work.
Luckily, we were able to meet with our other friends one last time before she left (with the exception of Elen, because she stuck at home in the province for summer vacation), and it felt fulfilling to catch up in person for the last time. Manie and I were able to ambush her last Friday too, and as we each went our separate ways, it dawned on me that in two days, she would be leaving, as in really leaving. I haven’t felt this way since my last major breakup. Darn these delayed sink-ins.
We spent her last hour or so in Manila in a group BBM chat, and although I was heavy-hearted at her departure, I’m kinda proud to say that I didn’t cry. It doesn’t mean that I’m immune to her leaving and all… It’s just that, why should I cry when she’s left us a lot of precious memories to remember her by? And hello, what century are we in? The advancement in cyberspace are giving us a lot of ways to communicate.
Maybe we’ll see her when she visits in 3 years’ time, maybe not. For now, I won’t deny that I will miss her physical presence, but again, she’s given me a lot of happy memories for the brief time that we’ve been together. That, and a liver detox diet plan. And gazillions of coupons.
Joana beybeh, hope you got/get home safely. And that I see you… Soon. And don’t forget to apply for BIS! Don’t let your pretty Berry go to waste! Miss you, love you, mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah! :*
Despite the bad reviews from Curve 3G users, I reinstalled WordPress for my Berry. I can blog on the go again. I hope it means I can start writing on a regular basis.
I’m fully aware that you have been disappointed many times in your life, and now, it’s possible that you see me as one of the many people who have disappointed and continue to disappoint you. For that, I truly am sorry. Please don’t think I’m abandoning you because although it may seem that way, really, I’m not. It’s just that for the past few months I reflected on things and I think I finally saw the light. You’re you. I’m me. Our worlds are different. You’re you. I’m me. I realized that all those times I did what I could to keep up with you, I kept losing a part of me, to the point where I saw me as you and wished that in time, you would see me as you. You’re you. I’m me. You have wounds that are impossible for me to heal. You’re you. I’m me. We’re two different people. To me, you were alcohol. You were the moon. You were a song. You were my world. But that was all me. I know it will never be the same for you.
Remember the vow I made to protect you at all costs? I will continue to fulfill that promise in hiding, as your shadow. Does it make sense to you? To me, it kinda does because, well… I’m me, and you’re you.
