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My Dearest Ella,

Earlier tonight, I was watching you smoke with Ric and it finally hit me: you’re leaving Branders!!! On the night of September 1st, I won’t hear your footsteps and your music between 8-9PM, and I won’t be able to see you in the mornings when I come in for work.

It feels weird, this feeling of having to say good-bye to you a second time after what, four years? And you know how much I suck at good-byes, and how I tend to lose communication after doing so.

Anyways, I don’t regret referring you to work at Branders at all. I can see how much you’ve learned over your tenure here, and how you have made valuable friendships within your Finance family, and that gives me a sense of fulfillment that somehow, I have been your indirect shepherdess of sorts. I’m only sorry that it wasn’t until recently that I had the luxury of being able to bond closely with you again and form our sisterhood with Shari.

I know you’re both excited and scared with life after Branders, but I know wherever you go, you’ll thrive because you adapt easily and even though you say you are weak, you are resilient enough to shield yourself from pain.

I know I’ve hurt you with my harsh words a few times — I hope you have forgiven me for being mean then, for not being able to trust you with your judgment when in reality, between the two of us, you’re actually the one who’s more mature. But again, you know I only said those things because I love you, right? :*

Thank you for giving me the chance to be your friend. From PeopleSupport to Branders (and all the shit in between), I have always felt your presence and you did what you could to stay in touch. You had a stoic exterior, you weren’t as expressive as I was, but you put up with me and my shallow ideosyncracies, and because of that, I know you love me as much as I love you.

Let’s show the world that not all good-byes are forever. If you need a drinking buddy, shopping buddy, eating buddy, movie buddy, et cetera, et cetera, I’m just here okay? And you still owe me a sleepover at our house.

Good luck, babe! I’ll keep my promise: I will drink lots of water, drink lots of water, drink lots of water, and I love you! :*