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To Kangin Family!
Families take care.
I’ll come back safely.

Source: Kangin Family Translated by Minnie @ SUJUISM.BLOGSPOT.COM
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I was going to wait until a picture of Kangin right before he enters camp to surface before I write this but my heart feels so inexplicably broken that I had to start blogging about it.

ELF-wise, I was a late bloomer. I only started being a Kpop fanatic towards the end of 2007, and it wasn’t even mainstream Kpop to begin with, but just Kdrama OSTs. Now that I think about it, I think I only became exposed to a little of the real Kpop music in early 2008. Super Junior, I only “discovered” them through “Sorry, Sorry”, and I didn’t even like them the first time I saw them. But then came “Neorago” and my ELF officemates started exposing me to a lot of the past variety shows they’ve done, and I started increasing my Super Junior song database… bottomline, I eventually ate my words as they grew on me. (Heck, I even went as far as buying their albums and watching their Supershow here in Manila!) I disliked them initially because of their number, but little by little, the individuality per member was the charisma of the group; they were a melting pot of diverse personalities that sort of complimented each and everyone of them.

He’s not among my Suju biases, but Kangin’s presence in the group for me is strong. Not that there was someone who was unremarkable, but he’s among the ones I immediately notice when I watch them. His voice is catchy too~ he’s one of the few members who’s voices I’ve mastered so if I hear a song and his part plays, I know it’s him and I don’t have to check a vid or fancam just to make sure.

Since I was late in acquiring the Suju bug, the last project of him I’d seen was “Neorago” (I think). He was suspended from participating in SuJu activities due to DUI and some assault cases. I don’t know much about it, I leave that to my friend Zy who loves Kangin so much, but that doesn’t mean I am not sad about it. For a group that I have grown to love and admire because of the eclectic range of personalities it had, it was saddening to know that there are members who are not participating actively.

Super Junior released a “Boys In The City 3″ photo book around April or May of this year, shortly after their Manila Supershow, and we were elated to see Kangin was beginning to have a little exposure around that time. But to our dismay, he wasn’t in the photo book, and he wasn’t going to be participating in the upcoming fourth album. And then the shocking news of his military enlistment came out.

Which leads to today. July 5th, 2010. At around 1PM KST, Kim Youngwoon, also known as Super Junior Kangin, has officially entered the army.

As I write this, pictures have started to come out and I couldn’t stop crying while looking at them. All 10 active members of Super Junior were there to send him off, along with probably thousands of ELFs from Korea and other Asian countries. If I was in Korea, or if I had the money, I would’ve probably gone there too to see him one last time.

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He also left a little something for his fans. After appearing in SuJu’s fan meeting last month, he also left another present by participating in this song…

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Kangin-ah, noona will patiently wait and continue to support you, together with Super Junior and the rest of the ELFs. We believe you’ll be a tougher, even better man after serving in the military. If we keep ourselves busy, 2 years will be over in no time. Some goodbyes are not forever. Hwaiting and saranghae!

I haven’t worn my glasses consistently for quite a while. So I’m making this my motivation to wear them religiously. ^^

Which reminds me, I have to go get my glasses now~ ^^

I’m currently waiting for a bunch of stuff to arrive:

- Boice membership card
- Blue Love Taiwan version
- YesAsia package
- HMV parcel
- Na Hyun Jung’s bunny brooch

And I’m counting the days until I see someone precious again… I just hope that when I do see him, I still like him.

Ack. Waiting is indeed painful.
*Stomping feet impatiently.*

Edit (July 6): So now it’s down to my Boice membership card. And that guy. Which I kinda feel I’m losing interest in, so I think it’s just down to the Boice membership card, really.

Edit (July 7): Finally picked up my copy of “The Way” from my post office aunt!

Please FNC, send me my BOICE membership card?

*Stomps feet some more.*
*Prays fervently.*

…to uri lovely drummer Minhyukkie!

May God bless you in all of your endeavors and I wish you many happy returns of the day! Saranghae! ?

Today while on the way home, I got a call from my sister telling me to hurry home. I told her I still had a long way to go. Turns out my mom’s hemorrhoids bled while she was on number 2 and she was asking to be brought to the hospital, but my sister was in the middle of buying groceries so she thought I could do it if I was anywhere near home.

I called Mommy immediately and what got me even worried was that she was trying to assure me that she was OK in this really scared voice. If she didn’t sound as afraid, I would have laughed (imagine, she said her poop was about a foot long), but since she did, I was really bothered that I couldn’t stop crying after we hung up. She didn’t want to go to the hospital anymore because there was this anticipated street mass we were sponsoring tonight and she didn’t want to leave the preparations hanging. My mom, ever so selfless.

Finally I got home, and save for little bleeds the size of pin pricks on her undies, she seemed okay. But still I made her promise to see a doctor tonight after mass.

I wish she’d be okay, I hope it’s nothing serious, nowhere near needing an operation and stuff like that…

Here’s how my last week was.

Monday: UKISS concert at 8PM, work immediately after.
Tuesday: 7-hour sleep, which still felt too short. I felt feverish upon waking up, but still went to work.
Wednesday: BEAST fansigning event after work; got to Mariel’s place around 11PM and slept for about 2 hours.
Thursday: Back at work from Mariel’s and on a spur-of-the-moment decision, went to SM North to get a control number for Day 2 of BEAST’s fansigning. Slept for about 2 hours on the way home, took care of chores and hurriedly prepared to make it to the event. Got there in the nick of time. Slept for another 30-45 minutes on the way to the office. Slept for almost 3 hours at the clinic; extended my shift to offset the hours that I didn’t work.
Friday: Started feeling really sick, with sporadic asthma attacks on the side. Wasn’t quite sure if I was still up to watching the BEAST/KHJ benefit concert for unwed moms, so I put off buying a ticket for the meantime.
Saturday: Felt a little better, which led to me watching the concert.
Sunday: MinozPH 3rd gathering.

The first half of that week took place without any vitamins. But I learned my lesson midweek and with constant badgering from my sister, started religiously taking 1000 mg of Vitamin C everyday.

And since I started having those asthma attacks, I was forced to quit smoking temporarily. I was doing good until the night of the concert, when I bumped into a smoker friend. I kinda missed it, so I did one stick, which I regretted later on, because my attacks recurred the following morning. But baby steps. I can’t say I’m totally clean, but I think I’m doing a pretty good job at resisting the urge. One stick yesterday and 2 today (So I backslid. Sorry. I’m going to stop it at 2 today and try to resist temptation tomorrow.)

Damn. I really should start taking care of myself. Seriously. T.T

Happy birthday to the two most influential Korean men in my life.

My first official Kdrama love, Lee Minho; if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have met my extended MinozPH family. It’s been quite a while, your beloved Minoz have missed you terribly but now you’re back! Whether you’re the curly-haired Gu Junpyo or the meticulous Jeon Jinho, you never failed to capture my heart. Hmm, there’s something we have in common that I think we both need to quit… or have you already? I think I’m about to. ^^ Let’s do it together? ?

My bolmae-Jung Yonghwa, who introduced me to CNBlue, and to my fellow CNBlueSkiers and Boices. You made me cry endless tears watching you play the role of Kang Shinwoo in “You’re Beautiful”. You made me religiously watch Music Bank and a lot of other shows from the time CNBlue made its Korean debut. When you were sick, you made me worry, maybe too much that it’s almost motherly. While it usually makes me high, it’s also tiring at times, but I like the feeling. It somehow reminds me that I’m alive. It makes me feel alive.

I am truly thankful to both of your moms for giving birth to you.^^

I wish you both good health, lots of love, the safety of your loved ones, and heaps of success in your respective careers. May God bless you in all of your endeavors. And I will be a loyal Minoz and a true-blue Boice, willing to support you and cheer for you in whatever you do.

Saengil chukahamnida! Saranghaeyo! ???

Big thank you to Zyra for “cleaning up” my original Hyukjae marriage certificate ~ and for making a Donghae marriage certificate while she was at it. ???

That was one hard lesson I learned today. Well, at least, as a fan girl. Harharhar.

It’s been somewhat formally announced that SS3 Manila will be on February 16th of next year. The buzz is that the ticketing event for that will take place in October this year. Whether it’s just purely reservations or payments, it’s still unknown, but for the sake of prudence, I’m going to assume that they’ll start accepting payments around that time.

It shouldn’t be a problem ~ last supershow, it caught us by surprise and didn’t think it was actually true, so when it was time to pay around PhP8K up front, I even had the luxury of choosing to pay in cash or via credit card.

So why am I on panic mode? It’s because around October, there might be a fan meeting for Lee Min Ho, and I can’t afford to miss that, being a staff and all. That, plus there’s this indescribably paranoid hunch of mine that CNBlue might go on an Asian tour. Needless to say, I can’t miss that too, can’t I?

Because of that, I have to stop myself from visiting HMV and YesAsia and other similar sites for the meantime. Lately it seems like I’ve been working to pay credit card debts that result from my excessive fangirling. It’s not like I’m delayed with payments ~ I get to pay them on time, in all fairness to me. But… I’m sure you get my drift. So today, I made my last online purchase (I hope), and kept it below PhP3K.

Ugh. I never thought financial maturity would sneak up on me like this. T.T I’m not really complaining though, it could always be worse, like happening to me when I’ve already started living on my own. *sigh of relief*

This song used to make me cry, but unbelievably, it brought a smile to my face when I heard it on my Opus today.

Wherever it leads us, I will always be here.

Always Be Mine >> FT Island

I hear you breathe
You’re lying close to me
The shadow’s gone
I have found my peace

You make me calm
With you, I’m safe from harm
And right by your side
I’ll stay through the night ’till eternity
That’s the way it will be

And I wonder what you’re dreaming of
You’re so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want, everything I need
Is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I’ll always be true to you
Sometimes I think I might lose it all
Guess the chances are small
‘Coz you hold me close, I feel you near
Don’t let go, say you’ll always be here
So just hold me tight and I’ll be fine
Dreaming you will always be mine

Just like the sun
You make me warm inside
Like a soft summer breeze
A moment to seize so true
I won’t stop loving you

And I wonder what you’re dreaming of
You’re so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want, everything I need
Is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I’ll always be true to you
Sometimes I think I might lose it all
Guess the chances are small
‘Coz you hold me close, I feel you near
Don’t let go say, you’ll always be here
So just hold me tight and I’ll be fine
Dreaming you will always be mine

And I wonder what you’re dreaming of
You’re so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want, everything I need
Is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I’ll always be true to you
Sometimes I think I might lose it all
Guess the chances are small
‘Coz you hold me close, I feel you near
Don’t let go say, you’ll always be here
So just hold me tight and I’ll be fine
Dreaming you will always be mine

Dreaming you will always be mine